An Emotional Enigma....

"LOVE"

Love is the one of the most commonly used word of English language on which everyone could deliver a whopping lecture based on his own set of experiences and perceptions. All the human efforts directed towards solving this enigma had resulted in more confusion and lack of understanding. And love in itself means total absence of logic and rules. The rules and laws of it can only be understood by baptizing in pool of it…and for that too u have to wait for ur chance because the leap cannot be voluntary (make sure u dive essentially with ur partner… lone divers are drowned easily!!!  )
To love a person is to start a relation that would last forever, defying all the bonds of differences, practicality, mortality and worldly rulebook. It’s to make someone feel special like no one had ever felt before. It’s to make urself vulnerable as a baby and give your loved one absolute authority and power to hurt you, hoping that she would never exercise it. It’s to try & act yourself as far as it could go and leave nothing precarious. It’s most selfless of all relation as sometimes it demands nothing, not even possession. It makes u walk past your ego and comfort zones. It’s to express your feelings, your love through every gesture u make, every act u do, to leave nothing unsaid and unheard. It’s to accept shortcomings as they are and to respect individuality. Its like utter innocence of nature which is the prime force of creation or it can be like its fury which spells doom and destroys every thing in vicinity.

Love demands a great care and devotion. Its fully based on pillars of trust and harmony. Relation of love can be the most strong and delicate at the same time. Its as pure as the feeling which occurs when a stranger thanks u for your help or a cherubic girl lends u her helping hand and says” Itna toh chalta hai….” when u thank her.

I don’t get over things, people especially. I always remember the moments spent, smiles shared together. I don’t carry grudges or hard feelings. I believe that an individual’s actions are consequence of complex mixture of circumstances, chance, prospects, liabilities, responsibilities and character of a person. So, if anybody who was special for me for one single moment will remain the same forever irrespective of his/her deeds.
Whatever be the case its very hard to forget your first love. She remains special and owns a soft corner on your heart. How can u forget a girl whose sight made u weak at knees, lose ur rational mind, do the most stupid things in the circumstances and just feel great. It was because of her you, probably for the first time paid attention to your looks. Without whom all those songs would not have sounded so melodious, so melancholic. A girl who (rather whose absence) changed your vantage point to everything, joy and pain included.

The priorities of your life could change and they definitely will. You may no longer need her…. but you’ll always want her. Her absence may not bother u any longer…. but a part of u will always believe that things would really had been different rather beatific had she been around. She may stop intruding your thoughts…. but u will always stop for a while and notice whenever her name is called out. You might have abandoned her entry in your dreams….. but you can’t help remembering that face every time the word “girl” rings in your mind. You might not have any regrets… but expectations will never fade away.

The person who says that he had never experienced the feeling is lying blatantly. Once in your life your eyes meet someone’s and your whole world freezes in reverence of the event. If u are lucky enough to get that girl’s love consider urself to be the most fortunate ass in da world and if u don’t u’ll have sweet hope of repeating such encounter, wait for a girl to again stop the world and make it go round for u…..just like the hope that rests in my heart….

RUN!!!!

You gotta run….
Escape from the person this world wants u to become….


Brokenhearted angles are counting their days….
Every friend is my competitor, I don’t wanna play…


Each souvenir of success smells of umpteen charred ambitions and unfulfilled expectations…
Smothering relations and entangled love stories waiting for fatal revelations….


Faith being marketed, souls are on sale….
Bloodbath of humanity reduced to frivolous columns on newspapers page…


Love and its expression is impertinence to our grandiloquent culture….
Beauty is judged on basis of skin color instead of deeds and nature…


Women are treated as objects of pleasure and respected only as idols of clay…
Beheading of innocent “kaffirs” justified to achieve nirvana on dooms day…


Religions are illusory, promiscuous priests are preaching celibacy…
There has to be some destructive plan for this contingency..


If u are obdurate enough to see all this and stay sane u can stay…
I’m tired lying to myself, just want to break free and run away….


Run so fast that my shadows can’t keep up the pace…
Chase my dreams, rediscover smile and reinvent innocence….

(Run forest!!!.....RUN!!)

No Pain.....No Gain!!!

Struggle and life are synonymous to each other. Human life is full of events, events that either result in happiness or despair, it’s full of up and downs. It’s human to buckle under the pressure of life, to admit defeat in front in adversities. But one always offers a fight before admitting his defeat. Struggle makes a person stronger and tough. Suffering proves to be a blessing for a man who can face it bravely as it unbottels a huge pool of talent and strength. We never know how strong we are until being strong is the only choice left.

And, its sometime great luxury to know that you are fighting one to one with nature, destiny and system, that you are all by yourself and the onus of saving your ass lies to yourself. Sometimes it’s wonderful to know that you are swimming against the flow or standing alone for a cause. Suffering is also caused when your thoughts and action are not in accordance with the system. You are either above or below the normal level, larger the difference more is the struggle. It’s like you either collide with slow moving-ongoing traffic or are hit by a over speeding truck. In both cases it’s you who ends up with bruised knees and ankles!!

When we witness someone undergoing a tragedy, our fears grow and worries grow even bigger than the suffers’ because he’s either busy in fighting or in damage control. He’s too busy to think, he cannot because for him each moment is momentous, his each cerebral movement is directed towards his own rescue and he cannot risk losing battle pitying on his situation or brooding over the circumstances. But we on the other hand think of the complexities of the situation and its repercussions, extrapolate the events and imagine ourselves in that situation. In doing so we often forget the adjustable human nature, its ability to derive happiness in any condition and its irrevocable and clandestine belief in ‘the survival of the fittest’. It is the hostility of nature that initiates evolution. Every change comes with a pain. Time and pain are the greatest teachers.

For all the technological advances and spiritual glory we cannot control our fate, what we can control is the way we respond and act when adversities are bestowed upon us.

“What’s life without a little chaos( or Royal Challenge!!)”

Ignorance is bliss!!!

“Knowledge is end to all fears”------really???!!

Ever seen a child smiling?? He smiles as if there is no pain, evil or treachery around him. As he grows up and gains experience acquaints him with worldly malpractices, laws, regulations etc. his reasons to smile shrink dramatically. He discovers that he have to compete with a mass and prove himself every time he wants to achieve something.

There is a story of a king who started the search for the happiest man in his kingdom. A poor shepherd was awarded that honor. why?? why was a person with bare minimum possession so happy? A possible reason behind it could be the absence of responsibilities. Lack of responsibilities breeds blatant freedom. Freedom is the most indispensable reason for joy. If u strive for power, status and possession, they all come wrapped with immense and myriad responsibilities to bind u. Innumerous duties have to be fulfilled in order to maintain them. Man runs after these things for achieving satisfaction and happiness and ends up losing a major part of it.

So, how could we experience the purest form of happiness, utter joy, and sheer pleasure? One of the most common ways is to live in complete negligence. But today, where your even one wrong step can cost you your future this doesn’t seems a good option. Otherwise one day you’ll wake up to fin your life in ramshackle.

Second is to become a passive part of system and do not interfere wid the way it works. Always wear a mask which shields u from others. Be corrupt, be criminal, be every thing that system demands from u. Become “Hypocrite” in real sense. This way you’ll end up losing yourself and nobody will ever remember your deeds.

The most ultimate one is to baptize in the pool of knowledge. To detach yourself from everything. Reduce your expectation to absolute zero. Work without emotions, fears and worries of ramifications. To drop the difference between comfort & pain, smile & tears, gain & loss. To consider your self part of circus where God plays slapstick comedy with you. To consider yourself worst man on earth who deserves punishment every moment. Try challenging fate and destiny. Make your self strong enough to face world barehanded, to the point where luck and other people’s verdict doesn’t matter anymore. Point out the shortcomings of system and try to swim against the flow. This way is the most difficult of the lot but most appropriate, effective and right.

If u follow this nothing would be left to brood upon. And absence of sadness and confusion leads to sheer pleasure…..

As Naveen wrote on the walls of our room

“Do not take life too seriously,

You are not going to come out of it alive!!!”

PS: Did I forget to mention alcohol......oops!!!